ix. cheesy post.

I'm kind of in a down mood. I really hope writing this helps. Basically I don't even know how to explain what I'm feeling. I guess if I had to put words to it I would say regret, or stupidity. I guess basically no matter how I acted things are probably for the best now anyways. It just seems that sometimes I just get incredibly down and miss (insert boys name here). I don't even understand why, it makes no sense to me, oh yeah and trust me making out with someone else doesn't help especially when you find out that person is a fucking douche bag, who doesn't care about you at all, and goes to a club the next day and hooks up with other people, brilliant, thanks bud.

Just a heads up, if anyone ever reads this. I know it's such a cliche but if you have something great don't let him go.

And you know who you are if you read this I'm sorry. I miss you, I care and I always will, I just can't keep on feeling this way, basically if I know there is no hope what's the point in holding on to it.

... and this is why people call me emo. hahaha

viii. a few of my favourite things.

This is a blog I'll edit frequently as I recall what they are. Just a little something I thought I'd post so you can get to know me better if you want.

i. paramore - anyone who knows me like has even met me knows that paramore is and has been my favourite band for quite sometime. I don't really know what it is about them, I just love em' I'll be seeing them on october 15th for the third time, what up!

ii. oj - the juice not the person. I've always loved o.j but last year specifically I would drink it everyday. I used to buy the mini juice boxes which would cost $2 more then a huge jug that had way more juice.

iii. diet coke - my ultimate drink of choice. it will one day be my demise.

iv. owls - I have an owl on my wallet. I've had this wallet for as long as I can remember, I also have a necklace/t-shirt with an owl on it. I'm also kind of obsessed with owl city.

v. mitchell davis - youtube him, he's amazing, I just love him.

vi. pumpernickel - if I have to choose a favourite kind of bread pumpernickel takes the cake, followed by 12 grain.

vii. headbands - I bought another one today. that brings the total including my two ropes up too 11. I think it's become more of a collection if anything.

viii. LOST - best tv show ever. followed by HIMYM and Gossip Girl. I have the seasons of all three of these shows. kind of loving them, hate it when people over talk about them (kind of a pet peeve)

ix. (500) days of summer - by far the best movie of the year so far. I highly recommend it to anyone and everyone, so good, it helps you get over relationships like you would not believe. I guess I'm saying it gives you hope.

x. cheese cappelletti/chicken fingers - it's kind of a done deal that if you're at a restaurant with me I will pick one of these two items. if not it is going to be a BLT hold the T.

xi. fran's - okay, so for those who don't know fran's is this diner like restaurant just off Yonge Street, in toronto. It's tradition for me to go or try to go there everytime I'm in toronto, Maia showed it to me like 4 years ago and Ive kind of become addicted to the place. feel special if I go with you to fran's.

xii. plaid - I love a man in plaid. I also love myself in plaid. I just love plaid. I'm overjoyed it's in style. a few years back Jerry was the only one who wore it.

xiii. james franco - in my opinion one of the sexiest men alive.

xiv. polaroids - I know it's tacky and "hipster" but I love polaroid pictures. my dad used to have an old camera that took polaroids. I'm probably one of the worst photographers but I would love a camera that took them.

xv. cosmo - the magazine, and I guess the drink but the magazine is something ive gotten every month since I was 17. I really need a subscription.

I'll update this more later.

enjoy :)

xx00

vii. orange, strawberry, banana.

Due to lack of internet, I haven't been able to update this as much as I would like. I'll be like hey, this is interesting I should blog about that oh wait no internet. But, now I'm in Oshawa for a few days visiting my dad.

Basically my step mom signed up my entire family back in February for a 15km walk for "Sick Kids Hospital" in Toronto. I'm actually pretty stoked. I have my ipod ready, some handy snacks, water bottle fanny-pack (oh yeah, I look like such a nerd when I go on long walks) but I really enjoy it AND it's for a good cause :)

While preparing, besides training, I figured I needed a good playlist cause on average if I jog a little this thing is going to take me a couple hours, and Im also the type of person where if I don't make a playlist I'll listen to the same song over and over and over (yeah, I'm one of those, I hate them to) to the point where i'll begin to hate the song, which sucks cause normally it's a good song (questionable based on the individuals music taste). Anyways, while making this playlist I came across music I used to listen to on repeat when I was younger. The one band that still fits perfectly (like an old glove) is oddly enough NFG, (New Found Glory). If for some odd reason you don't know who they are you should look them up, basically they're pop punk, but I personally find them to be extremely unique, (they don't sound like everyone else) I know I'm probably preaching to the choir and am like 7 years to late, but in my defense they put out a new c.d. this year! Oh and if you are going to check them out buy the dvd "The Story So Far..." it's most definitely and i say this confidently the best band dvd I have ever bought. It basically explains any form of inside joke Maia (my best friend from high school) and I had from grades 9-12. Yeah we liked/watched it that much.

"orange, strawberry, banana... banana's good for you."

xx00

vi. oakville.

So I've moved back, does that mean summer is over, no, not at all! If anything it's just about to get that more amazing, I love it here, although I will for sure miss home and all that.

Story time!!

Before moving down we had to go visit my grandparents for their 60th anniversary. Although it was memorable and I got to see some of my relatives (aunts, uncles, cousins etc.) that I have not seen in a very long time there was something that bothered me. There was no service... And okay I don't want to sound whiney but I know everyone will agree with this, doesn't it always seem that when you're out in the bush with no signal for miles (including the roof, my 18 year old cousin who seemed desperate to talk to his girlfriend climbed up there to check, nope no service) that everyone seems to all of a sudden want to talk to you!?!? Like okay the reason why this annoys me is cause when I'm sitting at home, bored, with nothing to do, it seems like everyone is busy, but when they decide to talk to you you're at a family thing. Well to be fair I know we should have been bonding with our distant relatives but in our defense my brother, my 5 cousins and myself had no clue who 3/4 of the people there were... just saying.

So then after the reunion my step father decided it would be best and save time if we stayed at his parents cottage which was just 10 more minutes out into the middle of no where, so yet again no signal, oh yeah and no toilet that's always fun (Thom and Jerry are going to read this and just shake there heads at me, lol) But I survived and then we were oakville bound.

Oh one last thing, so I decided to bring my entire cd collection to oakville with me, its bad ass, and alphabetical, score.

xx00

ps. sorry this is diary-esc

v. owl city

is BEYOND amazing!

buy.

download.

myspace.

pure volume.

you tube.

tune in.

to that shit.

so good.

So I bought the new Owl City Cd today, and I have to say it's beyond what I expected, I already owned most of the songs, and it still surprised me. Think Postal Service-esc.

Oh also, I turned 20 on August 1st. It's been sweet thus far, and in 5 hours I'm headed to my beloved Oakville <3.

Sorry this post is kinda lame, I also won't have internet for a few days.

peace out, girl scouts.

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